and all i can say is thank you

I love it how I can always count on You
To be there when I need you most
Even if that’s the only time I come
Your hand is always outstretched
You’re there with open arms
And all I can say is thank you

I love it how You’re right there to guide me
To show me the way down life’s path
To keep me out of the thorny bushes
And on this well traveled path
And all I can say is thank you

I love it how you love me unconditionally
No matter what I do
Your love never fails
After my biggest mistakes
You’re there with open arms
And all I can say is thank you

I love it how your timing is so perfect
When I’m about to break, I get help
When I’m crying, comfort
When I’m depressed, encouragement
When I’m lost, guidance
And all I can say is thank you

I love it how your plan always prevails above mine
No matter how hard I try
My plan is always secondary to yours
Always bringing glory to Your name
Your will is always for the better
And all I can say is thank you

Thank You for everything
For Your gifts and your time
For putting your will so high above mine
For guiding me, not letting me get lost
For replacing Your love for life's dross
For being there when I needed You most

For Your outstretched arms

For all the love, joy, peace and patience

All the kindness, goodness, and faithfullness

All the gentleness and self-control

And all I can say is thank you

Fork in the Road

I didn’t ask Your permission
Now I’m really regretting it
Feeling horribly in the wrong
And not knowing how to fix it

Plunge myself into misery for punishment
Or do You have another plan?
Was this simply a wake up call?
Or is this not meant to be?

Your will I want done
Mine being so feeble and changing
Guide this lost child
On Your path everlasting

Differentiate Your voice from mine
Your will from my desires
You see the big picture
Me, only a pixel

Faith being shaky
Asking for clarity
Because I’m lost in this pit of confusion
The light, I cannot see

Second-guessing everything
Please meet me here
The difference between my desires and Yours
I’m asking to see painfully clear

I know You’re alongside me
You caught me when I did fall
Though stubborn I was
Not thinking at all

Forgiveness and Guidance
I’m asking above all
At a fork in the road
I stand… asking

Will you lead me Abba?

Puddle (College)

Lost and alone
Thrown out to sea
To fend for myself
In all this uncertainty

Fighting the current
My body, it strains
To get out of this whirlwind
Things all look the same

The rain coming down
Skewing my view
I can’t see a way out
I can’t pull through

Appearing in front of me
He calls my name
Holding out his hand
In this pouring rain

Taking it, I trust
He knows the way
Through this whirlwind of doubt
I’m so afraid

You prevail and step through the veil
That has clouded my view
That has clouded the trail

Whirlwind behind
Now with Your hand in mine
I see it was only a puddle
On the street of time

Thank You

Thanks for being there
To make me smile
When the day turned out
A little sour
For making me feel special
When i felt nowhere near
deserving of the love
from someone so dear
For all the smiles
And concerned looks from you
I whisper one big
THANK YOU!

Life has a meaning

Life has a meaning
And everything in it
What was today’s purpose?
Why’d I even live it??
To grow and to learn for trials to come
To love and to see the beauty of grace unfold
To see friends surround me in time of need
To feel loved and accepted and everything in between
To know that He cares about each little thing
To know I’m a daughter of the one true King.
To know there’s a purpose in each and every day
To know I’m here for a reason, there is reason to stay
To know that my life is part of a big plan
To further His kingdom to far away lands
To get glimpses of my Father
The one unseen
And know that he’s watching
His little daughter, his princess
That’s me!

Boredom with a Purpose

Bored out of my mind
I’m trying to rhyme
To get that mind
Off of seemingly pointless time
Wondering about life and love
About poetry seemingly sent from above
About long weeks ahead
Endless homework in sight
About these tired little eyes
Wanting to sleep tonight
About journals and flowers
Birthdays to come
Christmas and New Years
And Holiday “fun”
About this writing I’m doing
Seeming to come so naturally
About how these random thoughts
Running through this mind of mine
Could somehow come out
With such rhythm and rhyme
About Myspace and IM
And email out the wazoo
From girls and from boys
Some close and some so far
Each one bringing meaning
To this not so lonesome girl
Wondering about life
How’d I get so lucky?
With a mom, dad, and sister
I couldn’t think to leave
With a heavenly father
Lavishing me with love
Every minute and second
I feel his touch from above
Now I know
That this seemingly pointless time
Has done more than make a little rhyme
It has helped me to see
How lucky I be
And I thank Thee
For the time You’ve given me.

Dry and Barren

Worn out and consumed
By things that don’t matter
Burnt out on school
Burnt out on always giving, giving, giving
And never receiving anything back
Giving all my encouragement
Giving all my time and energy
Where are the results of my work?
The fruits of my labor?

Worn out and consumed
By things that don’t matter
Where do I go from here?
I’m lost, feeling all ALONE

Trying so hard to be perfect and its not working
And its not required, I know
But I can’t seem to convince myself of that

Relying on encouragement
Those that are random, short
But mean the world
Trying to rely on my Father
And stay strong but it’s so hard.

My soul’s dry and barren
Rescue me…
Fill me Father
PLEASE


“Encouragement is the OXYGEN of the soul” ~John Maxwell

Can I Take My Mask Off Now?

For so long I’ve seen others masks
And frowned upon them for their fronts
But now as I look in the mirror I can see
That I’ve had one all along.

Can I take my mask off now?
Will they laugh and scorn when they see?
Or will they see the REAL me
And the beauty that my Father sees?

This mask of happiness and joy and glee
Of Perfection, Bliss, and harmony
It’s been here for so long
I’ve almost come to see it as real
But this mask is now slowly peeling away
And showing through is all the hurt
The pain, the sorrow, the stress
The weariness, the fear, the confusion.

No longer do they see my flawless mask
No longer do they think everything’s all right
No longer do they think I’ve got it all together
For my mask is slowly peeling away
And showing through is the REAL me.

Hoping they’ll accept my faults and my flaws
I rip off the mask that has grown so hard and so unreal
Slowly I peel back all the fronts I’ve put up over all these years
Am I afraid of their reactions?
Yeah, but I know one thing and that is
That those ones that do accept all my defects
Are those ones that will catch me when I fall.

I’m no longer ashamed to admit
That I don’t have it all together
That I’m broken and weary
With no strength to carry on.
So here I surrender, mask and all
To my Savior, my King, my Lord of ALL

GNC (Global Night Commute)

Walking…
Who ever thought it could change
A life…
A school…
A city…
A nation…
A world.
That such an impact could be made
That once, is for the better
Not the worse.
That such a mindless thing
Done everyday
Could impact lives in a whole new way.
Who ever thought…
Not me.

Those that thought were
Courageous…
Brave…
Bold….
Out of the box…
Out of their minds…
Crazy enough to think they could change the world
And they did.
And it all started with three lives and a passion
Ignited by the unseen, the invisible.

Walking…
Who ever thought it could save lives
Lives of those invisible to the world
But seen by the eyes of the crazy ones
The ones crazy enough to think they could change the world.