Good Times Again

I love it when you put a smile on my face
When I see the light in a dreary day
When I can be content in the chaos
When I can relax
When I can have fun again
Despite all the craziness
All the confusion and doubt
All the questions and uncertainty
You blind it all with the smile you put on my face
Thank you for your grace

UGH

Aggravated and frustrated
Life isn’t what I expected
I’m tired and confused
The fruits of my labor are really hard to see right now
I want to see them so bad

You know sometimes when you just feel like a failure
You always remember the criticisms
You get ticked off for no reason
You’re just mad at the world

I don’t get what is happening
I thought I had everything together until this weekend
When I realized again that life isn’t going to be perfect
Things didn’t go as I had planned
And that is so frustrating and just makes me feel like a failure
I hate being like this
I don’t like the way I am today

I want this Christmas season to be filled with joy
My outlook on it now is quite the contrary
Filled with exhaustion
Possibly some tears
Confrontation
Fear

I am
Aggravated
Frustrated
Tired
Exhausted
Confused
Worn out
Lost
Isolated
A zombie today.

Oh God you have a plan
And I so want my plan to be yours
I have no clue what you are doing
And I am trying to trust
I am trying to breath deep in your nooma
I am trying to let you take control again
I am trying

To “succeed” I need your strength
To be happy again I need your joy
To be content I need your peace
To belong I need your love
To feel I need your fire
To be alive I need your spirit
To be here I need your breath
To be forgiven I need your grace
To be your hands and feet to the nations
I NEED YOU

I invite you to be a big God

MY BIG GOD