Contradictory Mundaneness

Feeling so rested yet so overwhelmed
So encouraged and yet so down
Contradictions like this
They seem miles thick
And they hover without a sound

Get schoolwork done
Do college applications
Be the best at work
Be a leader for all
Have a life
Be sane
Make everyone proud
Let nobody down
Live like Christ
Be a shining light
These expectations
I want to fight

When did simply living life become so stressful
When did it begin to bog me down
Where did the joy go in waking up
To that new and fresh start every 24 hours?
When did all these expectations just make me want to quit
When did this “whatever” mentality creep in?
Where is that joy I found in every day
To go to school and help light the way

Life seems to be becoming so mundane
Yet its not, I promise, it just seems that way
Why can’t the joy I feel at times like those
That joy that keeps my heart beating
Keeping me on my toes
Can I find that joy I lost a while ago
Can it come back to me?

I want to be the person who always has a smile
The one that always encourages
Brightening peoples day
I used the be that person but now it’s seemed to slip away
So I pray, once again, to be that way
To be that light in my school from day to day
Mundaneness, I want, to be of the past
Joy is today
I welcome it in to stay