Fork in the Road

I didn’t ask Your permission
Now I’m really regretting it
Feeling horribly in the wrong
And not knowing how to fix it

Plunge myself into misery for punishment
Or do You have another plan?
Was this simply a wake up call?
Or is this not meant to be?

Your will I want done
Mine being so feeble and changing
Guide this lost child
On Your path everlasting

Differentiate Your voice from mine
Your will from my desires
You see the big picture
Me, only a pixel

Faith being shaky
Asking for clarity
Because I’m lost in this pit of confusion
The light, I cannot see

Second-guessing everything
Please meet me here
The difference between my desires and Yours
I’m asking to see painfully clear

I know You’re alongside me
You caught me when I did fall
Though stubborn I was
Not thinking at all

Forgiveness and Guidance
I’m asking above all
At a fork in the road
I stand… asking

Will you lead me Abba?

Puddle (College)

Lost and alone
Thrown out to sea
To fend for myself
In all this uncertainty

Fighting the current
My body, it strains
To get out of this whirlwind
Things all look the same

The rain coming down
Skewing my view
I can’t see a way out
I can’t pull through

Appearing in front of me
He calls my name
Holding out his hand
In this pouring rain

Taking it, I trust
He knows the way
Through this whirlwind of doubt
I’m so afraid

You prevail and step through the veil
That has clouded my view
That has clouded the trail

Whirlwind behind
Now with Your hand in mine
I see it was only a puddle
On the street of time

Thank You

Thanks for being there
To make me smile
When the day turned out
A little sour
For making me feel special
When i felt nowhere near
deserving of the love
from someone so dear
For all the smiles
And concerned looks from you
I whisper one big
THANK YOU!

Life has a meaning

Life has a meaning
And everything in it
What was today’s purpose?
Why’d I even live it??
To grow and to learn for trials to come
To love and to see the beauty of grace unfold
To see friends surround me in time of need
To feel loved and accepted and everything in between
To know that He cares about each little thing
To know I’m a daughter of the one true King.
To know there’s a purpose in each and every day
To know I’m here for a reason, there is reason to stay
To know that my life is part of a big plan
To further His kingdom to far away lands
To get glimpses of my Father
The one unseen
And know that he’s watching
His little daughter, his princess
That’s me!

Boredom with a Purpose

Bored out of my mind
I’m trying to rhyme
To get that mind
Off of seemingly pointless time
Wondering about life and love
About poetry seemingly sent from above
About long weeks ahead
Endless homework in sight
About these tired little eyes
Wanting to sleep tonight
About journals and flowers
Birthdays to come
Christmas and New Years
And Holiday “fun”
About this writing I’m doing
Seeming to come so naturally
About how these random thoughts
Running through this mind of mine
Could somehow come out
With such rhythm and rhyme
About Myspace and IM
And email out the wazoo
From girls and from boys
Some close and some so far
Each one bringing meaning
To this not so lonesome girl
Wondering about life
How’d I get so lucky?
With a mom, dad, and sister
I couldn’t think to leave
With a heavenly father
Lavishing me with love
Every minute and second
I feel his touch from above
Now I know
That this seemingly pointless time
Has done more than make a little rhyme
It has helped me to see
How lucky I be
And I thank Thee
For the time You’ve given me.