Dry and Barren

Worn out and consumed
By things that don’t matter
Burnt out on school
Burnt out on always giving, giving, giving
And never receiving anything back
Giving all my encouragement
Giving all my time and energy
Where are the results of my work?
The fruits of my labor?

Worn out and consumed
By things that don’t matter
Where do I go from here?
I’m lost, feeling all ALONE

Trying so hard to be perfect and its not working
And its not required, I know
But I can’t seem to convince myself of that

Relying on encouragement
Those that are random, short
But mean the world
Trying to rely on my Father
And stay strong but it’s so hard.

My soul’s dry and barren
Rescue me…
Fill me Father
PLEASE


“Encouragement is the OXYGEN of the soul” ~John Maxwell

Can I Take My Mask Off Now?

For so long I’ve seen others masks
And frowned upon them for their fronts
But now as I look in the mirror I can see
That I’ve had one all along.

Can I take my mask off now?
Will they laugh and scorn when they see?
Or will they see the REAL me
And the beauty that my Father sees?

This mask of happiness and joy and glee
Of Perfection, Bliss, and harmony
It’s been here for so long
I’ve almost come to see it as real
But this mask is now slowly peeling away
And showing through is all the hurt
The pain, the sorrow, the stress
The weariness, the fear, the confusion.

No longer do they see my flawless mask
No longer do they think everything’s all right
No longer do they think I’ve got it all together
For my mask is slowly peeling away
And showing through is the REAL me.

Hoping they’ll accept my faults and my flaws
I rip off the mask that has grown so hard and so unreal
Slowly I peel back all the fronts I’ve put up over all these years
Am I afraid of their reactions?
Yeah, but I know one thing and that is
That those ones that do accept all my defects
Are those ones that will catch me when I fall.

I’m no longer ashamed to admit
That I don’t have it all together
That I’m broken and weary
With no strength to carry on.
So here I surrender, mask and all
To my Savior, my King, my Lord of ALL